::-i KnOw U kNoW-::

2010-04-27T01:39:00.003+08:00

my work is cut out for me. what work? gaining your love and trust. all i need is patience and perseverance.

baby i know i've made a mistake. a huge mistake. you've forgive me and still going out with me after what had happened. after i broke your heart into a million pieces. what im trying now is to get the broken pieces back together. i know it wont be easy.

did you notice something? everytime i leave you, i came back to you. the reason is simple. im just not myself without you. im incomplete without you. im nothing without you. even when im joking and laughing, in my heart, im miserable. everytime i leave, you're always there to accept me back. this time round, you didnt cos i know you're scared i might be leaving you again. right now, after learning a hard and terrible lesson, i've become mature. if you accept me back someday i hope, i promise you, with my life, i will make it last. WE will make it last. we're both human. we both make mistakes. mistakes are made so that we can learn from it. i learn it the hard way baby.

im going NS soon. i dont know if my absence may change your feelings towards me. NS period will make or break a relationship. some relationships end because of NS. some grew stronger. i hope what we're having now will grow stronger when im serving the nation. just give me one chance. one more last chance. i promise you i wont waste it.

The Boy Really Loves The Girl.

2010-04-06T02:16:00.002+08:00

alot of things happened since the last post.

i broke up with the Girl. my mistake. i regret whatever i did. i wrote in my previous post that i dont want to lose any of my loved ones. i did lose one. the Girl that i truly love.

i just ended the call with her. i told her that i wont disturb her anymore. the reason behind it is that i want her to move on. i feel like im stopping her from moving on. but its for her own good. i cant believe that im doing this. i cant even stop myself from texting her, thinking about her. but i have to.

im still gonna love her. i hope that some day, she'll return the love. but it wont be that soon. i know that. she's gonna be in my thoughts, my prayers.

i know this is going to be tough. if by not texting her or not meeting her helps her from moving on, i dont mind doing that. all i want is for her to be happy.

hopefully she wont forget about me. the first guy that bought her flowers. hopefully she reads my letter every now and then. i hope for alot of things. the one i want to come true is for her happiness.

baby, i just want you to know that i love you. alot actually. just that sometimes i dont show it. im afraid of losing you. losing a big part of my life.

i better stop here. having the worst chest pain right now. and yet smoking at the same time.

2009-11-07T04:28:00.002+08:00

before i begin, my condolences to Rasul and family.
be strong for yourself and your family.
wouldnt be easy but we're all here for you.
Al-Fateha.
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sorry for not updating. wonder who still read this blog of mine. hahaha!
just a short update.

i miss watevas. the whole bunch.
busy with school, work or the other half.
had a misunderstanding with fidah the other day.
wouldnt want to talk about it.
i cant seem to remember when is the last time we ALL went out together.
had fun, stuffs to catch up.
only impromptu meet-ups for now.
i may not be the BEST friend one can ask but i try my best to be one.
i tried being there for everything, for everyone.
but... ah, i dont know.

miss the Girl too.
i know you're busy with school, im busy with work.
but we'll work it out okay?
sometimes i get too busy with my work and friends until i neglected you.
i apologise.
for not spending time on your special day, i apologise.
i always put myself before you.
i apologise.
i know im not always there when you need me.
i feel bad, its killing me inside.

why the emotional post?
cos im scared of losing every single one of you.
you people are precious to me.

this post sounds like its my last day living.
but you can never predict what's gonna happen.
i love you guys!
thanks for being there when in times of need.

2009-08-28T08:50:00.002+08:00

finally, after 2 freaking months, i decided to blog again. yeay? haha!

alot of things happened during the 2 months. good and bad. quitting school which im not really proud of, adapted to working life at sentosa. many things happened but too sleepy to type it all down.

seems like i got alot of things to type. but it was gone before i could.

im going to take a shower now. gonna go work. =[

2009-06-29T00:55:00.002+08:00

hi there.

1st of all, i want to say

GOODBYE CWT(ESTEE LAUDER) AND HELLO SENTOSA!!!

the past week, i've been working at CWT to do stock-taking. its mentally and physically exhausted. all that counting make me crazy. on the last day, im so crazy, i told my supervisor only crazy people count brochures 1 by 1. really. its crazy.

during one of my working days, someone called from Sentosa, saying i got the retail job. YEAY! how great is that. so look up for me when you're in Sentosa okay.. hahaha

okay lah. enough update. bye!

2009-05-24T02:48:00.002+08:00

from today onwards, i wont ask anyone to hangout. im done with having the initiative asking people to hangout. im dead serious. you guys wanna hang out with me, you know what number to dial. if there's nothing serious happening to me, i wont disturb you guys.

kina, if you told us earlier about your accident, i rather see you than hanging out at west coast park. if you didnt want to tell us because of our reaction, hey, that is natural when you hang out with the boys. we love you. even muhsin loves you although he kinda sucks. and oh, you look 'wonderful' with your 'good' looking teeth. hahaha. i love you and please ride with care.

2009-05-13T00:08:00.002+08:00

i guess everyone had their Mother's Day, celebrating it with joy. well, not everyone. its a different Mother's Day for me. a day which i was hoping that things at home is going to be well, stays the same. i wish Mother's Day would come later when things at home is back to normal. Mothers should not shed any sad tear at any day, particularly Mother's Day but my mum shed the most saddest tears i've ever seen. i couldnt help but to cry. i cant say anything to comfort my mum. no words to make her feel better. just YOUR presence can and will make her feel better. but YOU didnt come. YOU disappoint me, especially Mimi. YOU put YOUR feelings first before hers. HOW COULD YOU? don't YOU miss her? don't YOU love her? YOU didnt make YOUR words to action.

i'm so sorry but i am SO disappointed in YOU.

2009-05-10T03:27:00.002+08:00

i've been doing alot of thinking after seeing a huge group of young adults like me, having a wonderful time together, chit chatting, talking crap and most importantly, being happy and laughing like there's no tomorrow. they remind me of watevas, except for the number of people.(we got 8 people excluding the partners and they got ALOT)

when will watevas be like that again? i mean the whole group, not the usual 3-4 people. its not like im always there, or am i, im not too sure, but sometimes we just need 1 person to take the initiative to ask. i know its not like all of us are 24/7 free right? i know how busy some people are. schooling, working, families, old and new friends, bf/gf, cousins. a few hours for watevas is good enough for some of us.

anyway, if any of you guys didnt know, kina and nas bought their bikes recently. i just hope you guys would pray for their safety. life is short, you know. please treasure your loved ones and dont take them for granted.

* i'll admit it, i'm so scared to answer love's call..*

2009-04-27T00:25:00.003+08:00

hello there. its been a long time i last update. apologize for that.

last 2 weeks, my aunt passed away. she was the one who took care of me when my parents were busy working. she babysits me when i was young, way before i know how to walk until k1. my parents would only picked me up on friday and send me back on sunday. she took care of me like i was one of her own.

things at home still the same. nothing's change, nothing new.

on a lighter note, Kina got a bike! very proud of her. P-PLATE!!!! hahaha..

take care and be careful!

*God gave us two ears to hear with, two eyes to see with, two hands to feel with, two feet to walk with, but only one heart because the other one is with the person you are meant to be with forever..*

2009-03-23T03:32:00.003+08:00

hey there.

cant sleep as usual. just updating about saturday.

went to Sarpino's Pizza @ Pasir Panjang late saturday evening. my cousin wanted to blanja the Capulet Riders and to have mini reunion as many of us didnt meet up so often. after eating the delicious pizzas, chickens and lasagnas, we headed to Cineleisure to catch Push. out of 10, i give it 8. really really amazing. only irritating part where there are character family of 3 that has the power to scream at high decibels. irritating to the max. other than that, its great. after watching the movie, everyone headed home.

it was my first time going to town on my bike. it's a wonderful feeling. thankfully it was early in the morning, there's not much traffic. i did make some emergency braking due to taxi wanted to pick up passengers last minute.

i got nothing to look forward to that is exciting. dont ask about my love life. had a fight with cupid and it doesnt want to help me anymore. hahahaha..

okay okay, i stop crapping now. meeting kina in the morning!!!

*Now it's late. I can't even pretend I've been sleeping..*

2009-03-19T00:50:00.002+08:00

things still unsettled at home. but no worries. im doing fine. i just cant stay at home. i'll just find reasons to go out.

my sleeping problem is still there. sleep at 5am, wake up at 3pm. sometimes i go days without sleep.

something new. i got a job. sending and fetching my 2nd sister to and from work. hahaha. atleast i got something to do right?

everything's the same. nothing new to update...........................

2009-03-11T23:31:00.002+08:00

never did i expect it would turned out this way. no one did. it just hit rock bottom. it wont be the same. i wont be the same. this house wont be the same. NOTHING WILL BE THE SAME ANYMORE.

i dont want the same thing happened again. i cant cope with it. i dont want to go through the same thing again. it hurts me real bad.

2009-02-02T22:14:00.003+08:00

oopss! before i forget, i do say in the many previous post about the pictures in Batam. here you go!

Click Batam Trip!

enjoy and good night people!

2009-02-02T00:15:00.002+08:00

i've been sick for the past week. mixture of fever, cough and flu = mild asthma. both fever and flu are gone but cough is still here to stay for a little longer. it still didnt stop me from smoking. cutting down, yes but not stopping.

LSM field trip report completed last week. left with creative project which must be submitted before exams.

anyway, one of the bvps boys, Din, had just got his licence last week, purchased his bike on saturday. accompany him and family to make the purchase. after the purchased, we went Alif where we usually hang out. together with Hazim, we were there from 3.30 till 11. talked about another friend of ours which has changed for the worse and about relationship. the 3 of us had the same situation. gave each other a piece of our mind. after that, me and Din headed to Shell to apply for his Shell Escape Card. while chilling with Din next to his house, Nas called asking for help. help send him home from Jurong East. he missed his last bus.

slept late as usual and surprisingly i woke up at 11am. at 4.30, i headed to my late riding group(design and cutting doesnt sound nice) friend's house for his 1 year death anniversary. although i didnt know him like i know the rest because he past away before i got my licence, he did talk to me once, when he collected a valentine's day cake from my house which he ordered from my sister. very nice guy who have family members who treat his friends(us) like one of them.

okay, enough of my storytelling. from today onwards, im going to try not to smoke. if i really cannot stand the temptation, i'll smoke less than usual. trying is better than not trying right? haha.

nights readers!

*yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the "present."*

2009-01-22T23:36:00.002+08:00

i've been thinking..

how can you say those 3 words to more than 1 person?
arent those 3 sacred words mean only for the 'special one'?

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this afternoon, my group for events and promotions module had an event, promoting REB to secondary school graduates. only 4 came and the rest of the 14 students were made up of Ngee Ann students from other course. thanks to those who have contacts outside REB. i had fun during the whole event. learn alot of new things.

CNY falls on Monday and Tuesday which means LOOOOOOOG WEEEEEKKEENNNDDD! i have a field trip to West Coast Park on Saturday morning. the field trip will be boring without you, JINA! hahaha.

okayy, enough for tonight!
good night!

*Should i smile because we're friends or cry because that's all we'll ever be?*

2009-01-20T00:03:00.002+08:00

i apologize for not updating. busy with assignments and life basically. BASICALLY OR WHAT?!?!?! haha..

CONGRATULATIONS TO MY SISTER FOR PASSING HER TP ON MONDAY!! (like finally! hahaha)
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTER WHO JUST TURNED 29 ON 17TH JAN!

i went to kubor on saturday to visit my late friend's grave. i went with Din. the rest cant make it. i miss my late friend.

didnt do much the previous week.. nothing much to update.. my days are simple.. go school, back home, sleep. haha.

update soon when something interesting comes up!

*Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that..*

2008-12-30T02:05:00.002+08:00

am i crazy or am i just plain irritating,
calling your name every night when you fall asleep on the phone?
i call your name more than anybody's name.
its tiring but i love it.
you can call me crazy, crazy for you,
who i know i will never be with.

hello there.
yes im back from BATAM! its so-so lahh. did ALOT of shopping. the ferry ride was great but wasnt as great as it used to be. they used to have smoking area above, at level 2 but now, there's only 1 level and we did go outside to smoke but got scolded by the ferry officer. haha. i love the open sea. its makes you feel at peace.

when we got there, checked into our hotel and went out again to have lunch. we had seafood lunch by the sea. the seafood is fresh as the owner will catch the sea creatures on the spot. the food is delicious. lunch cost 1 million rupiah. after that, we got back to our hotel to freshen up. we then go out to do SHOPPING! got myself a davidoff perfume, 2 tees and a pants. thought of having a massage but too bad, i got no more money to spend anymore. =[
total spent on 1st day = 600,000 rupiah. ($1=7,600 rupiah)

the second day started badly. the hotel was having the water system at our level in the morning. we just brushed our teeth and got to the lobby to eat breakfast. the heaviest i ate for breakfast in my entire life. i had fried rice + scramble eggs + cereals. after breakfast, me and cousin went back to our room. i continue sleeping while he played his psp. got a call from my mum to pack our things because we need to check out by 10am. so i wake up, packed and got down. we put our things at the lobby and went to the shopping centre we went the day before to buy food like keropoks and kerepeks. got back to the hotel, grabbed our stuffs and off to lunch. we went to an eating place where they just place their food on the table. any dish that you eat, you pay for it. i didnt eat much. i didnt like the system of the restaurant. after eating, we went to Batam Centre. its like IMM. bought a bermudas. it cost 150,000 rupiah. ohh, bought J Co donuts. i love it! it was time to get home. i slept from Batam to Singapore. it was a tiring 2 days of just walking. i wont leave Batam if i had the money and time to spend. haha.

im happy and glad that im home. i miss everything here. especially YOU! i miss you so much that i met you the day i got back although im tired.

pictures will be posted next.

*Maybe every heart has a match just like a puzzle, and your ultimate goal is to find the person who holds your missing pieces. Maybe that's why people are meant to be together..*

2008-12-25T02:12:00.003+08:00

hello there! ignore the previous post.

i'll be leaving Singapore for Batam on the 27th morning and will be back on the 28th evening. i'll miss Jimmy's birthday barbeque and also miss my bestfriend from hell, Chivas. haha. well, holiday with the family is much much more important than the barbeque as i havent gone out of the country since 2005. how long is that? haha.

ohh yah, i told someone yesterday that i wanted fishes as my pet. then this evening, my mom brought home 3 goldfish. 2 of them died on the way home. so im left with 1. maybe i'll buy another goldfish and 8 parrot fish after getting back from Batam. why 8 parrot fish..? it represent the watevas kids. hahahaha. i shall named them if it is possible. =]

"you don't mess with Salma Hayek, IDIOT!" LOLs!

2008-12-24T01:40:00.002+08:00

batam trip is confirmed. 2 Days 1 Night. Saturday to Sunday. gonna shop till i drop. hahahaha.

i love the girl who just said this to me on the phone sleepyly, "jangan main-main, TP kat belakang." hahahaha

insomnia kicked in and i can only sleep at 5+, 6+. and wake up at 10am-12pm. i dont feel that sleepy. i dont know why.

she said this, "aku tengah tunggu pompan tu keluar dari pintu!" hahaha.

go sleep lah you!

this post is meaningless!!!

2008-12-19T01:27:00.002+08:00

apologize for not updating.

chalet was okay, nothing much. drink on the first night. smirnoff and baron. didnt lose myself like i did when i was with bvps kids. stayed up with Sharir as usual cause both of us couldnt sleep. send Kina half-way to Paris Ris MRT, went to e-hub McD. had breakfast with heavy eyes. went back, Jijah and Nas already awake, took the opportunity to sleep on the bed. got to sleep for a few hours cause Nas and Jijah 'whisper' too loud. haha. washed up, got ready for barbeque. Muhsin, Leia, Khaitua and Kina had to go to ZoukOut and only 5 of us left plus Fidah's sister and her boyfriend. that really killed the mood for doing anything. about 9+, we stopped barbeque. i showered and send Jijah to Pasir Ris MRT. the feeling of going back is so great that when i jokingly said to the rest that im going home that night, the rest wanna follow home. hahaha. Fidah's sister and her boyfriend went off and since the 4 of us left had no mood to do anything, we got on the bed and talked, about anything mostly crap. hahaha. Nas gave us a good background music with his snoring. he was the one who proposed not to sleep the whole night. MACAM PAHAM! tired of talking, everyone dozed off. my sleep was cut short when Kina. after Kina and Muhsin came back, went down to clean up and packed.

to summarize the chalet in 1 word - SUCKS!

so the school holidays of 2 weeks are here. nothing to do. supposed to do project yesterday but i got BUIH! fuck you lah!

not looking forward to watch Singapore VS Vietnam on Sunday. but since Nas asked me to join, i'll come along if there's any tickets left.

bvps kids are having a barbeque on the 27th December to celebrate Hazim's(Jimmy) birthday. im SO looking forward. hopefully there's Chivas, my bestfriend from hell. hahaha.

okayy, enough update for now. Nights people.

*what do you do when you like someone who already have someone? what would you do?*

2008-12-10T00:01:00.003+08:00

common test officially starts tomorrow for me, and i havent start studying. hahaha. will start soon!

anyway, i got A LOT of plans after the Common Test. watevas chalet + Batam Trip with Family. im gonna make sure i'll enjoy myself to the maximum. i neeeed a massage on my back. it kills me when the weather is cold. it get stiff.

hari raya haji celebration was okay. went prayer with my dad but he prayed at another level of the mosque. i bumped into Iskandar, Ibrahim and Ashraf. Iskandar lost A LOT of weight during his National Service. i got home drenched, due to the heavy rain. changed clothes and back to khailand. Cousin woke me up when he arrived my house. pestering me to wake up. woke up, eat, entertained my relatives as usual. when my 2nd sister left, i slept again. my body didnt feel good, still coughing.

today is slightly better. cough is partially gone, only the headache is on off. mum went JB and didnt leave food on the table. laziness takes over and i starved the whole day until sister got home and heated yesterday food she brought home from Abg Danial's. mum got home and bought me Dunkin Donuts as usual, and fried rice. only ate Dunkin Donuts. SOOODAPPPP!!

alright, need to get back to PVL notes now.

*Though it's easy to pretend, I know you're not a fool..*

2008-12-07T02:54:00.003+08:00

just came back from somewhere with my cousin, Salfi. been hanging out with him since yesterday. he's sleeping and listening to his handphone music right now, right beside me. my only close-cousin i have.

yesterday we went to 'this' place. i've never been up there before. its always at the bottom. the view from up there is fantastic. one day, maybe, i'll bring my other half (if i have one). there's even a group of people having picnic there - at NIGHT! hahaha.

look at the background. wonderful aint it. apologize for the image quality. haha.

this is at the top of that 'place'. NICE!

chalet-planning have gone way out of control. not elaborating much. bleahh!

-why do i have this feeling for you? i know i cant, but i cant help it.

2008-12-04T03:13:00.002+08:00

i cant sleep. i took pico's cough syrup and my cough is gone but it doesnt make me go to sleep. i got school later at 9am and still pondering whether to go or not. my class ends at 11am and im meeting my boys at 11am, ITE Clementi for 'Project Chickus'. most probably im meeting them at 12pm because i need to go change my engine oil at Bukit Merah.

two common tests down and FOUR to go. BIT and LSM was chicken feet, and the rest of the modules wont be. i should start studying this saturday. not should, MUST. i got alot of REL and PVL to cover. for IBS and EVP, i think i will study abit because its just elective module.

i spend much more time with mum nowadays. fetched her from work just now. everytime i pillion her, she would put one hand on my shoulders and the other at my hips. hahaha. i always tell her to lean back but she still do what she does. dont worry mum, im a safe rider. hahaha. =]

*don't stop calling, you're the reason I love losing sleep...*

2008-12-01T00:08:00.003+08:00

hello there!

currently im feeling really sick. cough and flu and waiting for asthma to attack. i think its due to the smoke from the burning wood and charcoal.

oh yah, my youngest brother sunat/circumcise on saturday. i headed over to ayah's on friday night. did not do much. met Hazim and Azhari at Hazim's carpark and headed to ayah's. we chilled at the playground nearby from 11+pm till 6.45am. did not sleep a wink. Hazim and i stayed awake while Azhari snores his way to lalaland. hahaha. by 8.30, we were on our way to Eunos, to get my brother's PP to be circumcised. hahaha. my brother was anxious. he didnt cry after getting circumcised. very strong boy. big brother is proud of you.

on our way back to ayah's, ayah told me something that made me felt so down. i cried in the van without anyone knowing. its hard when you know you cant do anything to change the situation.

i helped out until everything is settled. felt tired but so what. i didnt want to see my dad tired. he's tired and stressed enough. let your sons do some hard labour for you okay.

to ayah,

i know you have problems but i didnt know that its that big and serious. like i said before leaving your house, take care of your health, cut down on cigerettes. if you need any kind of help, financially especially, you can approach any one of your children. although we are not well off, we can contribute whatever we can. even your ex-spouse is willing to help you eventhough you done her wrong. i hate you for that but if you dont know, i LOVE you. never in my life i deny that you're my FATHER.

like what Jina said to me before, dont wait until he's not breathing, then i start regretting everything. you are my father and i am your son, no matter what. I LOVE YOU AYAH.

2008-11-27T23:37:00.002+08:00

im sick. having a slight fever. went to the library with Muhsin, Kina and Fida. planned about the upcoming chalet. everything seems okay. food and activities are planned.

oh ya, met Jina and her boyfriend, Hakim for a while, at the library. introduced myself to him and they went off, while i went back to the monkeys on the 4th floor. Kina and Muhsin having fun chatting with Leah. went off at 7.30, send Kina home. me and Muhsin went JP after that. go jalan jalan at Pasar Malam. bought vadeh and something something. sat somewhere, have our usual laughs.

right now, i feel like punching something. something that could react to pain. haha. just leave everything to me okayy. i can settle everything myself. MYSELF.

*Can this be true? Tell me, can this be real? How can I put into words what I feel?*

2008-11-24T17:18:00.003+08:00

i cant sleep. alot of things in my mind. when i managed to sleep, i keep on waking up. cold sweat wets my pillow. oh GOD, please help me overcome my troubles.

i think i need sleeping pills. zima suggest drink milk.

i think i should stop digging. im scared that i cant get out of the hole. (dig what, what hole, GO FIGURE!)

*I think my neck is breaking. Should I just give up, or try to live up to these expectations?*

2008-11-22T00:29:00.002+08:00

im hungry. really. no joke. a hungry man is an angry man, you know.

i will survive! i will survive!

my mum said that just eat the blueberry bread, which i don't really like.

i feel so restless.

okay, enough crapping.

*..it's not the way you look that brings me to my knees, it's the way you look at me..*

2008-11-18T04:57:00.003+08:00

guess what? im still not asleep yet. cool or what. i've been doing my Landscape Management field trip report which is to be submitted on Wednesday, after class. while working it, i accompany miss bubbly, who is also doing her report plus her I.S. assignment. she's asleep now and i have to give her a wake up call at 6.30. i did my report till the 7th station and i gave up. haha. typical of me. cannot take it anymore. i need help from miss bubbly tomorrow for the 1st and 2nd station which i missed due to you-know-what-happened.

im listening to songs to keep me awake for the whole day. and most probably, after waking miss bubbly, i can get my super power NAP! haha. need to wake up at 7.30. fetch sharir at 8.30, 8.45.

well, i cant type anymore. let my music take control now. like my cousin says, "good night and good morning!"

*So I keep it low, keep a secret code
So everybody else don't have to know*

2008-11-17T00:03:00.005+08:00

*editted*

for a few hours, in the wee hours, i lost myself. i didnt know what i was doing, what happened around me. the feeling was great for once in a while. all i know, when all was fine again, they were laughing at me. laugh about what, i still dont know. its a great lepak-ing session guys. lets do it again soon.

anyway, before that, the bvps boys went to Auntie Shop and Ah Boy to get some bike stuff. a few hours of surveying and buying, we went to beach road for our dinner. we chill at Keppel Bay(i think) after dinner. a great place to just relax your mind, with cool sea breeze flowing every single inch of your body. BEST! while we were chilling at the Keppel Bay, came 3 maids, walking the dogs. they walked past us and suddenly the song 'Careless Whisper' rings from one of their handphones. i want so much to slow dance with someone, whoever la. came home the next day, downloaded that song. haha.

okayy, enough for today. peace!

*if you know what you're worth then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hits, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you wanna be because of him, or her, or anybody..*

2008-11-13T02:21:00.004+08:00

hey there blog readers! just some random update/post.

im thankful and grateful for having these two groups of people.
- Family
- Friends (OLD and NEW ONES)

my family, especially my MUM, shows me why family ALWAYS come FIRST.

i just had a long talk with 3 people, who 2 of them i never knew i ever meet again. they showed me who my true friends are. thank you guys.

i wont state the reasons how they change the way i think. just something i need to get off my mind.

2008-11-11T22:18:00.004+08:00

last saturday, i got a fieldtrip to botanic garden. my first time. really. was supposed to meet the rest in school but i woke up SUPER late. so i made the trip on my own, got lost. haha. i parked my bike at the eco-garden which is super far from the visitors' centre. i got there and reached about 10.10. walking and walking, taking photos.

after that, i quickly got home, changed and went out to have lunch to supposely celebrate Nas, Zima and Khaitua's birthday but Khaitua cant make it but Fad tagged along. so still celebrate 3 in 1 birthday. had lunch at Mr Teh Tarik(new one). the food is super delicious. after lunch, we went under one void deck, cut cake. thanks Leia for the cake. everyone had to go off except for me and Muhsin. we tried to plan where to go. "da ade motor, tak tau mane nak gi pulak!" we ended up going home.

on sunday, i woke up at 12+. early than usual. Nas called and he asked me to come to his void deck to lepak. so after i watched disturbia on HBO, i went over. talked and talked and talked. he said he was hungry so we went to taman jurong 399 to eat. talking non-stop. went home around 6+. at 8.30, i went alif to lepak with the bvps kids. lepak, drink teh tarik, laughing non-stop. end up going home at 1+. sent home Rasul, Din and Hazim.

That's my WEEKEND!

- im very honored that you still have feelings for me, but please, move on. there's alot of guys better than me. lets just be friends okayy..

*I put a wall over my heart so i would never get hurt again..*

no string attached.

2008-10-28T23:36:00.001+08:00

hello!

nothing to blog actually.
haha!

peace!

2008-10-19T03:50:00.002+08:00

everything went down spiral after the question she asked me. though the question means no harm, but it does have an effect on me. one thing for sure, i dont like the question because it puts insecurities in my head. not confident in our relationship. its best that both of us take different paths now, and maybe in the future, who knows we could be together again. right now, i just want to concerntrate more on the family, friends and of course my life.

i've got much closer to a few of my primary school friends. because all of us have bikes. haha. easier for us to lepak and drink teh tarik in the middle of the night. share untold stories to each other. even muhsin become closer to them. thanks to ahmad, they got something to talk about and muhsin later on got closer to zul, my relative/schmate. not going to elaborate more on it. =]

going out raya with watevas later on. honestly, i've got no more raya mood. to please some people, i've got to go. not pointing fingers to anyone. got to go to khailand now. update raya pics next time. peace.

*There all part of the list..
Things that i miss..
Things like your funny little laugh,
or the way you smile,
or the way we kiss..*

2008-09-25T18:20:00.003+08:00

until now, i still dont know what's your motive by asking that question? its like you're having doubts about us, my love for you. it sucks you know. i have difficulties in sleeping now. sleeping in the morning, wake up in the evening.

anyway, i now know and confirmed that the girl i named 'Unnamed Girl' during my secondary school days is her. i read her blog and she says that her ex-boyfriend is Chinese. i checked up on her since i cant sleep.

raya is a few days away and i havent buy my 1st day suit yet. its black and the 1st time i wear black. house is in a mess right now. everything is not in place.

not in place.

2008-09-11T01:43:00.003+08:00

friends are important part of my life. be it watevas or bvps, their important to me. i know how different people prioritise their friends but i always prioritise my friends 2nd after my family. but somehow, some people when they have a new person in their life, they just so called 'forget' their friends. he/she will call their friends when they're feeling lonely or asking for help or favour. i dont mind helping but when the person call you up when they're in need of company, its like making use of you. im not saying that im perfect and all, im not.

watevas are supposed to go buka together this thursday but since most of us are not available, we postponed it to saturday. but on saturday, muhsin and kina are working and jijah's not free. i hate it when not all of watevas are not present. when are we going to have full strength watevas? this sucks big time! its always the same people, me, muhsin, leia and sometimes it'll be together with nas and fida. ah, what the hell, if they're not committed to watevas, what do i care.

on a lighter note, buka-ed with bvps just now. i wasnt even thinking that we will have another quick so called 'reunion' after the chalet. its great to see their faces again. buka-ed at al-majlis. expensive sia. sheesha-ed after buka. share new stories and being told of the politics in bvps. haha. kinda funny and childish. we chilled at esplanade, taking picture and enjoyed the scenery and cold breeze. maybe seeing them again later.

orite. i rant whatever is in me. dont think i talk about you when im not okay guys.. jangan terase ye? see you again soon, bloggy.

*If we would build on a sure foundation in friendship, we must love friends for their sake rather than for our own..* - Charlotte Bronte

2008-09-02T02:04:00.002+08:00

hello..

the 3D 2N chalet/reunion was a successful one. everything from the people to the food was perfect except for the room. the room was small, smaller than my room. its ok. atleast we enjoyed what we had. i guess that if God didnt take arwah's life, we didnt get to do this reunion. because of Allahyarham Roslan, most of us met at his grave and exchange contacts. if not, only a handful meet up like me, zul, ahmad and muz. many things have change for the past 7+ years. i now treasure friendship of any kind. from watevas to bvps. you guys make me the way i am today. thank you.

pictures will be uploaded soon okays..

*Relationships may not last, but friendships do..*

2008-08-12T22:46:00.004+08:00

hello there.

well, this week is study week. no school! but i have to study for my 2 papers. nothing much to update. i'll just let the pictures tell the stories.

Bukit View Primary School(Not Full Strength)

*Angel from my Nightmare..*

*Every love song I know I dedicate to you

Life is too short to hide some things

I am falling for you

I just wish that some day you'll see

I'm right behind you

But I wanna be right beside you

As your boy, your lover, your everything..*

2008-08-04T00:29:00.002+08:00

hello!

i've been spending most of my time now with bvps boys. always meeting up for discussion about the chalet that will be coming up end of this month. seriously, we cant wait. what do you expect? we didnt even meet or have any reunion for the last 7 years. this will be the first and hopefully all can come.

i miss the watevas kids alot. its like a week since we last met. we always meet atleast once a week. well, cant expect things these days. busy with boyfriend/girlfriend, school, work.

me and zima is getting on well. i've met her family on friday when she and jijah had their HS Idol. they sang well and i was expecting they atleast won 3rd but they didnt. azman is so cute and hyperactive that i want to bring him home. i guess i miss my lil bro.

alrite. enough for tonight. will post pics of bvps boys soon!

*I've grown accustom
To what you do
I guess you can say
I'm getting used to you..*

2008-07-28T22:05:00.003+08:00

hey.

long time never update. been bz these past few weeks with projects and presentations. alhamdulillah all the projects and presentations have been completed. most classes have ended and now, waiting for EXAMS, which is in 2 weeks! if you people dont know me, i tend to study later like tomorrow is the paper, today then study. haha.

life's pretty good. cupid and me in good terms. and im all smiles!

things to come:-

- National Day @ The Padang

- Outing with the Watevas

- Pri Sch chalet

- PUASA!!!

that's probably enough for today.

*The 1st Date*

**14th February 2008**

*As silly as it sounds, i'm so in love with your smile.

i love how you laugh with me; because for a moment,

I know that you feel the same way as I do.

And everytime I look into your eyes,

i fall more in love with you..*

2008-07-13T22:53:00.003+08:00

i don't know why but i keep thinking of you.
your image keeps on appearing.
your sweet cute face, only God knows how i feel.
your sweet seducive perfume makes my heart accelerate.
i just, just wish could meet you again,
in the lift again maybe.

things that could have possibly gone wrong, have gone wrong! at the wrong time. seriously. no joke. im tired thinking of all the problems happening at the same time; mentally and physically. i just wish there's a guardian angel who could help me.

i wish you could see through me,
then you would know how i feel towards you.
the things i said that things couldn't work between us,
i was lying to myself.
now, looking at the situation,
i've to learn to let you go.

im done....
for tonight.

2008-07-07T01:03:00.002+08:00

hey.

today i went to 2 libraries in a day. 1st woodlands library. do UPE project with louis, sharon and nadheera. did nothing much. find more pictures of gardens by the bay. that's it. boring. nadheera was feeling under the weather coz her period has come. she looks uncomfortable without me asking and ask louis and sharon go buy the pink pills for her. after much talking and stuff, we headed out. the girls waited at the mini garden outside civic centre while me and louis buy otak2 and burger. after enjoying the breeze and the food, we headed our own way.

met khaitua and leia at jurong east library. do our assignments there. fida came shortly after. accompany fida to ntuc to buy her cooking stuffs to teach her class tmrw. then we join leia and khai at kfc. donno what to eat so decided to eat the usuals, zinger meal. fida went home after that, the rest of us chill at AH as usual. went off arnd 10.15.

our eyes meet each other, position as close as kissing. u turned away quickly and i stoned for a while. my hearts was going 120km/hr.

*Giving up doesn't mean you're weak. Sometimes it means you're strong enough to let go..*

2008-07-04T00:08:00.002+08:00

hey.

life have been pretty okay for me. school stuffs have improved. work have been great. we're talking alot between colleagues. great improvement! thanks to those who asked about my well-being.

*Real life is no fairytale. It has no story book ending..*

2008-06-30T01:17:00.002+08:00

hello again.

i got a lot of things in my mind. one after the other. why cant life be much simpler?

*Its a fine line between Love and Friendship. How many times did we fall over that line? How many times did it take us to learn that we could never have both?*

2008-06-29T12:21:00.002+08:00

hey.

the family gathering quite okay. not that bad. i got my cousins and nephew to entertain my needs like take for me this, take for me that.

lepak for a while, then went home. watched OC season 4. then there's 1 episode where its so sad that i really wanna cry. abit. really. its really sad.

enough for today.
update soon.
lepak with watevas later.

*when you fall for a friend, you worry about screwing up the friendship of a lifetime, so when you do, be sure it's love and not lust, to prevent more than one heartache..*

*you gotta leave the past behind in order to move on to the future..*

2008-06-28T00:39:00.003+08:00

hey.

life hasnt been fair to me these past few weeks. but it has return to normal state. life ups and downs. ahhh..

parents are back. missed them loads. its nice to eat home-cooked meals again. haha. its true la. been eating super fastfoods since my parents are away.

the bike hasnt been good. always sick. but no worries. back in action oready.

oh, i got family gathering about 14 hours later. cant wait. but at the same time, i know that its gonna be boring. really. no joke. sometimes it gets too adult that im lazy to join.

orite, enough for now.
update soon.
anw, i miss the xoxo..........

*Never confuse love with trust. You cannot have one, without the other... Learn to trust, and love will feel so much better...*

2008-06-15T20:38:00.002+08:00

hey.

i no longer with zima. i told her what i really feel and i feel like a total jerk. really. i just wish someone would just shoot me dead.

common test was ok. nothing interesting about it. thank god that its OVER!

about work, im not working till 1st july. kak samah say business is down and the 'kids' there can do filing. so no job for me BUT a few weeks salary is in the ledger account. tmrw after 2pm, it will be available. YEAY!

i wanted to but i cant. its just not right time yet. like what she said, inch by inch.

*Never leave the one you love for the one you like.Because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.But what if the one you like loves you and the one you love,loves another?*

2008-06-02T23:59:00.002+08:00

hey there.
its been a LONG time i last update.

alot of things happened. the major ones were the lost of my primary school friend, whom i was close during that period and jannah being admitted to ICU because of bike accident. both situation i was shocked. Rest in peace my friend. as for jannah, wish you recover quickly. i hope and want to ride with you in the near future if you're still riding.

oh, i started working, as a filer, if there is such a word at my old workplace. i know i swear i wont go back there but if the work is easy and is $6/hr, who rejects rite. i hope leia get the job. then have friend to smoke with or to go home with.

this week is common test week. 1 down, 3 more to go. sucks. 1st paper i think im gonna just passed it. 2nd paper will be on wed, Ecotourism. not so important. thursday is Urban Planing and friday will be Advanced Building Tech. cross my fingers and hope for the best.

things with me and zima aint good. i guess its me. i dont even know what im doing. i know im hurting her. i told her we need a break. i need to clear some mental space. with school in the morning, work in the evening, 6 days, really makes me have no time for myself.

*Sometimes I Love You
More Than You'll Ever Know
Other Times You Get On My Nerves
That's Just Reality
No, It Can't Always Be
Kisses, Hugs, And Beautiful Words..*

2008-04-23T00:27:00.003+08:00

hey there

sorry for not updating. was busy. with nothing. heh. everything's fine. 2nd baby was sick on 6th april but i got it fixed. no worries. went sentosa with watevas for leia's belated 19th birthday. it was great eventhough it rain for a while.

school reopens. well, its great to be back to school. the only thing is that i got classes starts at 8 on monday, tuesday and thursday. sucks la. got to wake up super early. not that early la. since got 2nd baby so can take my time.

cant wait for 4th may. NSSL baby. get ready to LOSE! haha. Open catogory hasnt been kind to us. last year, we only won 1 or 2 games. cant get our usual rhythm and pace. hopefully this year is better.

its been 2 months plus and i love you more than yesterday, everyday. i keep thinking of you each and everyday without fail. i hope, i wish, i pray that we'll last till forever.

*Make a decision and dont look back..*

2008-03-28T23:21:00.002+08:00

while you're away..

i cried after our last conversation in singapore. i thought you'll call me back but you didnt. my days without you, i spent most of the time with the bestfriends. i thought out to boat quay, just hanging around in taman jurong will take my mind of you but obviously i cant. i keep thinking of you, missing you every second, wondering what are you doing, how are you. even when you message me, it seems its not enough. i want you to be here with me, knowing you're safe. sometimes when you call, i wish you're just right beside me, hugging me close, not letting go. but the fact is, you're still there. i know you're having cough and sorethroat. take good care of yourself and come back home safely.

*To find the perfect person, all you need to do is look past the imperfections*

2008-03-17T23:14:00.002+08:00

hey..

life gonna be boring for me starting from tmrw. miss belo wont be able to msg me often as she's going for a bonding camp before her vietnam trip. today i met her for the last time. i was feeling rather tired and grumpy. i dont know why but today's the worst. that's the 1st thing that makes me bored.

secondly, my TV! its gone for repair and i cant watch tv for 4 days. how uncool is that uh? no mtv, no contender asia, no american idol, no sports, no movies, no everything. just me, the lappy, the bed and the un'beep' handphone. that's it!

so what if i got my 2nd baby? can cause accident u know. SELISEH! haha. funny you fidah. anything la.

im gonna miss you babe. hurry home ok. i need you. take care of yourself orite. i love you alot alot!

*let's take this 'good enough' and turn it to 'great!'*

2008-03-15T01:04:00.002+08:00

hey there.

im excited today. i got my 2nd baby today! its fun. OMG! im pretty sure my 2nd baby will keep my mind off my 1st baby when she's away. i got something to talk to, share my problems. haha. if you're still wondering what/who 2nd baby is, she's my bike. my 1st ever.

i've watched 10,000 BC with my only one ms twinkle toes. its supposed to be double date with muhsin n his girl. but oh well, nvm. atleast i got to sit behind you guys. haha. i just picked any seats but there's 2 seats are specially special. they're like in the middle and with no one around so i decided to take the seat behind it. coincidentally, it was muhsin's seat. hahaha.

every second and every moment i spend with zima, i dont wanna leave. i just dont want the date to end. i just wanna be by her side everytime.

*Life is like photography. You develop from the negatives.*
**I'll be the fastest among the slowest and slowest among the fastest. Ride safely.**

2008-03-04T01:11:00.002+08:00

hey

im bored. as u know, its the vacation. i got nothing to do since im not searching a job anymore. i got nothing to look forward since everything is done like my birthday and TP. what's next?

im getting the bike on the 14th. i cant wait. i know it'll look like wak2, but i dont care. u got licence, got own transportation then can mock me ok. hahaha.

i want to go out with miss zima but she's busy with attachments. i gotta understand. all i can do is fetching her from attachment. but that's not always. i hope this 12th she can make it.

ran out of ideas.
lights out!

*Never try to impress someone to make him/her fall in love with you, coz when you do, you'll have to keep that standard for the rest of your life. Just be you.*

2008-02-25T23:26:00.002+08:00

Happy 19th Birthday To Me!
Im old and Im boring.
My goatie is turning white!
OMG!
HAHAHAHA!
Khai LAME!

Lucky number 25.
I love you, Nurhazimah.

*'The only thing worse than being rejected, is being rejected without even asking..'

2008-02-19T03:11:00.002+08:00

hey.

Valentine's day this year has been special. It's my first time doing such thing. It was more of last minute planning but it worked. Me and A.J. went to sentosa. Pretty romantic. The whole thing keeps on replaying on my mind.

Things have been pretty good for me so far. Exam week is here and im left with 1 paper. Thursday is my last day of school. TP is on 25th Feb. After that, i'll be searching for a job to kill time and to earn money. Angelina Jolie will be having attachments and her Vietnam Trip so i'll have to kill time by my own.

Watched JUMPER on saturday with Nas, Leia and KhaiTua. Cool story. Worth watching it again. GO watch it for those who have not watch it.

Time to sleep.
3.38 a.m.

*Which hurts the most; saying something you wish you never had, or saying nothing and you wish you had?*

2008-02-11T20:54:00.000+08:00

A breath of fresh air. That's what i called her. Most girls prefer to eat in restaurants, eat western food. But she prefers coffeeshops so that she can eat local food. She LOVE spices. I knew all this when i brought her to Bugis Cafe. I felt so bad but at the same time, i felt she's different from all the girls i knew.

We walked to Sleepy Sam's after lunch. It's very cosy and quiet. Good location for couples and book lovers. Alot of books to read but i cant. Im not in the mood to read i guess. But i manage to do some revision. And she did hers too. Learn about her modules abit. Interesting!

The bus ride was the best. Leaning against each other, holding hands. I didnt want the bus ride to end. I was enjoying the bus ride but sleepy at the same time. Didnt had much sleep. I wish i could send her home but these eyes of mine are heavy.

And so, thats my day with her. A GREAT ONE!

*Those who spend to much time searching for beauty on the outside, will miss the true beauty which lies on the inside.*

Accident

2008-02-05T00:42:00.000+08:00

hello.
bad news people.

high chances i cant take my TP on the 25th. i must complete my last prac before the 11th. if not, there's no way i can take my TP on the 25th. sad uh. i could have passed my prac just now. but i fell during my emergency brake and that is an immediate failure. haiya. my left foot hurts but hey, u need to fall to know how u get up rite. too bad la.

ms k-po has been my companion for the last few days. talked about the past isnt the best thing for us but now i realised that not everyone have a great childhood. it's a choice for each individual of how you want to change. im proud of u ms k-po/twinkle toes.

anyway.
last saturday went karaoke after my prac. coincidentally, i havent shaved my misai. looks fugly of course. karaoke-ing was fun with nas around. hahahahaha! and expensive too. its good to karaoke once in a while.

the next day, i helped fida's friend ayne to shift house. its great to work with bunch of great guys. lucky for me, she shift house just across my street from boon lay drive. so i skipped home while the rest went to boon lay interchange to get to their next destination. how lucky u are fida. 3 of your friends are staying near each other. hahas.

that should sums up my saturday, sunday and monday. lets hope the best for the rest of the days.

peace.

*Never close your eyes and hide from that one person who you know who loves you.*

2008-01-31T22:57:00.000+08:00

hey there blog..
i've been sick since last week..
fever on and off..
cough..

and i got 8 more days to complete my bike practical lesson..
if not, my dream of taking my TP is shattered..
i got 2 more prac to go and its fucking hard to pass..

-----------------------------------------------------------------
everytime im sick, i always think abt death..
its a scary feeling but i cant stop thinking abt it..
what if life is taken away from u just like that, unexpectedly..?
just think abt it..
-----------------------------------------------------------------

let's lighten up abit..
i been thinking abt someone..
someone who i've met couple of times..
i must be crazy for thinking abt someone for a couple of times..
i am crazy..
maybe i like her..
just maybe..
i realised that im not good in words anymore..
unlike in secondary sch where sweet words are so easy to say..
sweet talker mothertoot...
rite now, sweet words can no longer escapes my mouth..
it is more of straight-forward, spontanious reaction..
i cant fake anymore..
its good in a way..
but i cant please the girl all the time rite now with sweet words..
=]

* I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody. -Bill Cosby*

2008-01-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Sis!!!
She bought me new bedsheet few weeks back..
and i use it now..
hahahs..
nice rite..?
see, MICKEY MOUSE!!
there's still a child in me u know..
huahahhaha..

ok bye!

2008-01-09T00:27:00.000+08:00

i dont know how i feel rite now..
but what im feeling rite now is me..
this is what i really feel..
i know what i may do might hurt someone..
but i cant help it..
i know i took it for granted..
i dont know why it changed..
i know i shouldnt do thing i did..

im out.

*You have to give up when love is not enough..

2008-01-05T01:15:00.000+08:00

hey people!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
yeahh shit, after 5 days i wish happy new year..
hahas..

so far everything's good..
friends asked for my new year resolutions..
honestly, i dont have any..
at the moment..

right now, i need a part time job..
to pay for my future bike and expenses..
my life rite now is like, 'MONEY, MONEY, MONEY'..
even muhsin is like working most of the days..
sometimes, i even dream to be born into a rich family..
but i thankful that im born in this family..
nothing comes free in this world and i have to work hard to earn every single cent..

i still feel frustrated about the data entry job..
called me back when u guys are short-handed..
but when u just recruited a new guy, u simply threw me away..
&^*^%&*^(&()))&*^(&%$
i swear i wont return to that place..

i wanna sleep..
bye!

2007-12-20T23:14:00.000+08:00

hey..
back updating..
nothing much happen..

1 relationship problem..
that was the highlight of my life so far..
as if it was a drama..
and it wasnt even my problem..
but its good to be there for my frens..
tackling relationship problems isnt easy at all..
being one of the frens, u cant be biased and one-sided..
whatever it is, i hope it's settled..

im delighted that 'watevas' are meeting atleast once a week..
sometimes even 3 times a week..
leia n fida brought along their bf and bf-to-be..
and they can clique with us..
u know la we can be crazy and unpredictable at times..
i didnt expect them to join in too..
huahahaha..
even jijah n fidah are not M.I.A. anymore..
im super duper happy for that..

*u're gonna be back soon.. whether u bring something back for me or not, i dont care cause i want u to be back safely..*

2007-11-11T21:55:00.000+08:00

hey there..
im back updating..
im searching for a blogskin but nothing's nice..

on sat, i go accompany aisyah to popular..
buying her camp things..
then off to McD..
accompany her eat her lunch..
we talked alot..
oh, she need to eat slowly coz there's braces..
then i send her home..
her mum open the door and i hid..
its not tat i dont wanna meet her mum..
its juz tat im shy..

i receive a call shortly after that from my ex-colleague that they are short handed and need my help..
im shocked to hear tat 1 of them have quit..
so i help out, out of sincerity..
its good to see most of them..
i feel out of place sometimes..
i dont know what happen when im not there so i just kept quiet..

i want to buy a new hp..
i dont care..
i like K850i..
but once i settle my prac, i will surely buy it..
i cant wait..

k la..
wanna concerntrate watching soccer..
update soon ok..
Peace!

2007-10-31T01:17:00.000+08:00

Things have been worse for me lately..
i was told to stop working..
coz there's enough people and already at full strength..
and they need not need me anymore..
and how sad when those words were said when i just step in..
my mind went blank and i donno what to do..
i just carry on doing my work without any sound coming out of my body..
this work mean so much to me..

the people.
the money.

the people there are like my 2nd family..
everyday i spend most of my days there..
and now i dont get to see them not even once a week..

i need the money to continue taking my licence..
but now, how can i..?
ok, the upcoming pay will most probably last me the whole licence thing,
but how about the bike..?
seriously, i donno..

i once said, "Life has ups and downs. Now you're down, later you're up."
but there's a continuation to my sayin..
"When you're down, you're so down that you feel as if you're drowning"

previous day, before they ask me to stop working,
i thought of helping a close friend of mine..
she's having problems rite now..
and so i thought of helping her in the terms of money..
but now..

im still feel like shit rite now..
guess have to sleep..
maybe feeling better tmrw..

"Cash rules everything around me"

2007-10-08T01:28:00.000+08:00

hello there!
sorry i didnt update for a really long time..
really caught up with work and stuff..

here's a quick update..
-fasting has been so far so good..
-work has been slack..
-leah work with me..
-her cousin also..
-her aunt will be too..(kina's mum)
-taking class 2B licence with muhsin..(some funny experience together)
-just bought PSP white color..(thanks leia)
-preparation of hari raya has been almost done..
-bought complete baju kurung with songkok with samping and capal..

and i cant wait to raya..
wohoo!!
money money money..
hehe..
like small kid..
hopefully can go raya with watevas..
and i cant wait to pass class 2B..
i target early next year to pass..

i dont know y when i start doing something, i started noticing things..
for example..
-ever since i work watsons, everywhere i go, ppl carrying watsons bag or ppl going watsons to work..
-ever since i work at questlabs, i started noticing all the clinics that i register into the system..
-ever since i start taking class 2B, i got to witness alot of motorbike accidents..

weird, i think so..
creepy, yes it is..
any reasons..?
i cannot come up with any..

and oh, i havent prepare for sch yet..
no new clothes, no new shoes..
haiyo..

well, thats it..
very brief update..
gotta sleep now..
update soon again..

2007-08-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

today i start my new job as a data entry typist..
i woke up late and luckily the place isnt far..
i met leah in the train..
she was late to sch..
the workplace was stressful as ppl walk up and down ur cubicle..
and the sound of ppl pressing hard on the keyboard..
its not only one person.
its many..
and u gotta always be on the move..
taking new request forms..
its not 10 request forms..
its many..
got no time to talk, to msg ppl, even drink water..
there's another 2 ppl also start work today..
and i guess i did pretty well on the 1st day than them..
i didnt ask too many qns..
i didnt ask..
answers was given to me before even i ask..

ppl working there has no life..
starts at 1, finish at 11 on monday-friday..
saturday starts at 12.30 and finish at 7 or 8..
so i guess the only life u have is... sleep..
hmm...

so i guess i have to sleep now..

2007-07-25T23:51:00.000+08:00

went to ayah's hse last sat..
ayah wanna see marsya..
went there arnd 2+..
ayah wasnt arnd..
i gotta rush to work..
but ayah manage to meet me abt 5 min at home..
then i have to go..
sometimes i really miss him..
sometimes i hate him..
sometimes i had mixed feelings..
he's my father and whatever happens, its between adults..
but he hurt my mum..
i dont know..

i've been working like a dog..
i dont know why..
and this saturday, i have to do full shift as my colleague cant make his shift..
12 hrs at the cafe..
probably gonna go back with muhsin again..
and hopefully the train will not be stuck at Raffles again due to some ghosts playing with the doors..
hehehe..

sch's been fine..
most of the projects' deadline is next week..
today i will have one..
left french, iwd and rer..
french will be a easy..
iwd will be much easier..
rer, well, sux i must say..
well, just do it la..

ok, im tired bcoz of *ehem ehem*
so i shall update soon..
Au Revoir!

2007-07-15T01:47:00.000+08:00

im not going to post pics of my room yet..
but i will, PROMISE!

lets see, where shall i start my story..
hmm..
oh..

we (me and others) are not happy with somethings or some ppl..
im not writing down names here..
it all started long long time ago..
when this 'someone' say that,
"lets chill at a cafe once a week"
once a week that never was..
crap.

next.
u know who to find when u are in trouble or bored..
when u are not, u simply forget..
i don really mind..
but when we msg u, u didnt even have the courtesy to reply..
i dont really mind..
others mind..

next.
there's a female version of a close fren of mine..
if A go, she go..
if A dont go, she dont go..
so i cant say anything much as she is like him..
and i cant say anything abt him..
he's just... HIM.

next.
another close fren..
gave that person advice..
that person promise not to do it again..
guess wat..?
u did it.. AGAIN!
i didnt like abt it at first but..
what can i do..
its your life..
im tired of lecturing/nagging..

next.
closest of all..
u got to watch your temper dude..
if u carry on like this, ppl may dont like u..
i know u dont care if ppl dont like u..
but u may lose frens..
ppl may seems frenly to u but u nvr know what's in their mind or heart..

next.
dont make up stupid reasons why u cant hang out with us..
if u dont want to, just say so..
its not like we're gonna be mad at u..

next.
when u say something, pls mean it..
dont just say to please someone..
dont just say one thing, and do another thing..

if u ppl read this, and u ppl think u are one of them, pls..
and i say pls..
BE COOL!
im sorry, i apologize..
no hard feelings but its been killing us..
hate me, talk behind me..
do whatever u want..
atleast i get to say whatever i want here..
why?
my blog what!
HAHA!

k la, crapping to much..
Aur Revoir!

2007-07-02T22:15:00.000+08:00

sorry for not updating for such a long time..
been busy with school, packing, moving and unpacking..
and i'm tired..
really really exhausted..
but i'm really happy with the house especially my room..
the walls are blue, most things are blue..
and so u get the idea..?
blue is my fav colour la..
and i'm having open house and 'cukur rambut' this saturday..
another mess and another tired day..
what to do..
most probably most of my frens are not coming as they got their own thing..
so im not really looking forward to this saturday..

ok, i shall post the photos of my room next time yeah..
kinda tired..
Au Revoir!

2007-06-15T00:33:00.000+08:00

currently, im tired..
working as a butler is tired..
at M.O.S. somemore..
makes me more tired..
shud have listen to my body not to go out juz now..
but i miss fida n sis..
so i went to tanjong pagar..
and i shud have stayed at home after meeting them..
somehow i want to go out and play balls..
and someone really spoils my mood..
prank me..
just to see if i still care..
but the way the prank goes, it makes me mad, unhappy..
and i just wish i could punch someone..
but i know myself..
and if the prank wasnt a prank, i still dont go punch faces..
i'll deal it like gentleman..

and working for Catering Network for a day, i met Suhadah..
she's like nerdy2, cute2, sweet2 and a lil bit of wild..
and i like her and her bf..
cool people..
she say im cute..
hahahahahahas..
well, i cant help it..
hahahahahahas..

ok, im talking crap..
shud sleep now..
bye blog..
see u soon..
and oh, cicik syg, thx for the pure chocolate(s)..

2007-06-12T20:29:00.000+08:00

i did something stupid juz now..
i think its stupid la..
i read someone's blog from the 1st it began..
it brought me many memories..
i can say that all of them are good memories..

i guess that between me and ain, there's no hope..
i dont feel any attachment to her..
no more strong feelings towards her..
just friend-friend feelings..

right now, im not ready to meet or get to know any girls..
i dont know why la..
maybe im not confident like i used to..

got to go now..
watching anugerah with full attention..
haha!

2007-06-07T21:03:00.000+08:00

i know it..
but i chose not to believe or think abt it..

like i say, when u know the truth, it hurts..

but i've learnt how to expect the unexpected..

so it doesnt hurt that bad..

so now currently, im looking for..

im looking forward to the holidays..

but there aint no holidays for me..

i got to pack my things..

i can shift hse by the 19th..

so not looking forward to it..

only God knows why..

enough for today..

2007-05-27T03:00:00.000+08:00

i think its best not to know the truth..
coz when u know the truth and its not wat u expected, it hurts..
and i don wanna get hurt..
and all this came out from my fren not known for his emotional side..

well, next week is the last week of sch before common test..
after tat, 2 weeks holiday..
not really looking forward to it..

im a lil bit stress abt my new hse and my cousins' engagements..
abt the hse, y cant let the old adult decide and leave the young adult aside..
i hate it when it came to renovating the hse..
and abt the engagements', its supposed to be a happy thing..
but it turn out the opposite..
and families are quarelling with each other..
and every night, i heard the same thing over and over and over again..

well, everyone has prob..
it depends whether its a major or minor prob..
who say i dont have prob..?
i do..
and sometimes i dont like to tell others as others are not interested...???
i donno..

i got to go now..
i have to be somewhere now..
MY DREAMLAND OF COURSE U IDIOT!!

2007-05-22T23:36:00.000+08:00

its great to see how frens have moved on since the last time i've met them.
of course, there's the 'miss you' part..
but for me, not meeting them is great..
weird but for me its kinda logic..
the more u see ur frens, the less topic to talk abt..
and not seeing them makes the frenship stronger and tighter.

kina's doing fine after some setbacks.
she got frens like 4E2 in her course..
she'd doing great dealing with her ex..

jijah is also doing fine in NP..
have great frens..
see her quite often in sch..
if she come down to atrium, most probably i'll see her..

leia still stuck at her job..
new colleagues dont come to work..
piss her off..
and finally she have found someone she can 'manja2' with, close with..
thumbs up!

fidah...
well, didnt manage to keep update on her..
but still as crazy as she used to be..
she doesnt tell her probs to watevas..
only to her ite frens..
its ok..
if she's comfortable talking to her ite frens, then go ahead..
we'll be still here for u..

for the boys, nothing to say.
every fri nite, confirm see each other..
the prob with us is tat sometimes, we cant stand each other..
boys will be boys..

and not forgetting my other close frens, kina's cousins..
for a very very long time, didnt get any update on them..
i have this feeling tat they are doing juz fine..

want to have any outing, pls tell in advance..
coz only the working ones like leia and muhsin have to take off or
juz go out during their off days..
as for the rest, its up to u guys to set the date coz the boys are usually free..
anytime..

enough update for the moment..

2007-05-21T23:57:00.000+08:00

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you & I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

I'll Be Waiting.

2007-05-16T21:54:00.000+08:00

sis gave birth to a girl ytd morning..
so cute.
so small.
so curlie.. i mean the hair..

and oh, ytd was the 1st appointment for the purchasing of the new hse.
i'll be moving arnd 19 june..
by the end of the month, im there permanantly.
i cant wait to move.

and abt NSSL, we lost.
we reached the quarterfinal and lost.
we're certainly not in the mood that day to play balls.
well, its the 1st time playing in the open category anw so no shame abt it.

i've not been thinking abt the thing tat is bothering me a few weeks ago.
its a good sign.
but i really2 want to know the truth..

I'M NOT OK!!!

2007-05-06T00:47:00.000+08:00

shit.
y do i say im ok when obviously im not?!?!?!
i want her to know how i feel...
but at the same time, i dont want her to feel bad.
i know who i am.
i dont like people feel bad because of me.

shit.
work morning shift tmrw.
i hate to waking up to sunday morning.
sunday is for sleeping, relax.
someone's got to work rite..
if not, how to do shopping on sundays...?
hahas...

2007-04-29T23:47:00.000+08:00

u know abt the last post,
how i say it affects my work..
it really did this morning..
manager gave me the cafe key last nite as i work morning the next day..
nana and fahmy didnt want to hold the key coz they stay quite far..
so i took it..
i HAVE to be there by 10.15...
as i couldnt sleep, i played games on my laptop..
4am, i fell asleep...
and shockingly, i woke up at 10.40..
took taxi there..
reached there arnd 11.30..
luckily Mel, my boss, reached there arnd 11..
Mel was kind enough to understand me coz im honest..
i juz say tat i overslept..

i juz learnt how to bake cookies just now..
quite impressive i must say..
even Mel compliment me..
hehe..
she say i do cookies like taufiq..
hmm..
how i miss taufiq..
the guy who always brightens up the cafe..

2007-04-29T01:43:00.000+08:00

i got this very bad instinct.

and someone who is rite now close to me, feel the same way.

and i just wish its not true.

coz it really affects me during work juz now which wasnt great.

i kept quiet most of the time.

colleagues ask me if im ok coz i'll be the noisest if im in the cafe.

i juz say im ok.

but the fact is IM NOT!

im badly affected by it.

if i know wats going on, i'll be fine...

work hasnt been great.

taufiq has stop working temp.

new crews coming in and i know i cant clique with them like the rest.

strict rules.

no more slacking.

every sec, someone's watching.

how terrible is that!

thought of juz quiting but taufiq left me a msg b4 his 'last' day.

that not to disappoint Mel, my boss..

well, wats work without stress..

2007-04-24T22:09:00.000+08:00

i must admit sch sucks...
lack of sleep..
come back from sch, sleep...
then at night cannot sleep...
then tmrw morning sleepy...
how ah???
one of my pri sch frens say drink milk...
then can sleep...
i shall try 1 day...

Tonight there's Champions' League.
so 3 hrs of sleep only...
there are 2 tutorials at the end of tmrw...
so lame...
luckily the Law lecturer is fun...

cant wait for 1st May.- watching Spiderman 3 with Bro.
cant wait for 5th May.- out with watevas.
cant wait for 13th May.- NSSL tournament.

*I don’t want to speak those words
coz I don’t want to make things worse.
I love you...

2007-04-18T19:28:00.000+08:00

i saw something 'cool' ytd while taking a train from Boon Lay to Chinese Garden.
a guy wearing a t-shirt that says ' Life is like riding a bicycle.'
i find it unique and go do some research abt it and......

Why Life Is Like Riding A Bicycle.

1. You need balance. If you lean too far to one side, you'll fall off.

Regarding character traits, Maimonides writes "that a person should follow the golden 'path of the middle' and not lean towards one extreme or the other."
It's important to always pay attention to where you're leaning.

2. Get back up again!

It's not falling down that determines your worth; it's whether or not you get back up.

3. In the beginning you stumble, but with more experience you can really get far!

Life is a series of learning from your mistakes. That's how you learned to walk and talk. And it's how you grow in life.

4. If you look at the ground instead of looking up ahead, you'll lose your balance and crash.

In life, it's easy to live in your own little bubble, consumed with yourself. You not only disconnect from the world, you ultimately disconnect from yourself. Look up and outside yourself. Connect to the world outside of you. Only then can you flourish.

5. When the road throws you a curve, go with it!

When a turn is coming up, you lean with the curve. You don't fight it and go the other way.
Life sometimes throws you curves too, and in order to remain on top, you need to go with the flow. If a tragedy happens, accept its pain, and go with God's larger plan which is for the ultimate good!

6. A bike helps you get to where you need to go.

Some people ride bikes just for the thrill of it. And some people believe that life just for the thrills. They don't realize they have places to get to.

A bike is a tool - it's not the end goal. You're supposed to get to someplace with your life. Be clear on your destination, and if you use it well, you can really get far!

7. A bike doesn't move on its own.

Life and bicycles need people to operate them. Without a person behind the handlebar, guiding and making choices, it just won't go anywhere!

8. When you get really good, you can do wheelies!

After you've been riding a bike for so long, you can start doing the special stuff.

Life is like that also. Once you get the hang of who you are and where you're going, you can pop some big miracles too!

9. Bicycling gives you muscles.

Life toughens you up, especially if you ride up hills. Riding down a hill may be fun and exciting, but only riding up the hill strengthens your muscles.

10. You can't do it forever.

Some people wish they could live forever. Some people believe it. But just like riding a bike, your body eventually wears out, and you need to go home.

The important thing is that you enjoy the ride, and you get to where you need to go!

2007-04-13T15:28:00.000+08:00

hey.
its been a long time since i last update.
been busy going out, work.
cant believe that sch reopens on monday.
i got mix feelings abt sch.
1 side of me wants to go to sch,
another side, don wanna go.
i donno la.

i feel that i've not spend enough time for my family since i started working.
coz i reached home late and all are asleep.
well, i think sometimes u gotta sacrifice something rite..

on a lighter note, MAYBE me and the family will be going to Mustafa tmrw.
wanna find street soccer shoes there.
probably buy jerseys too.

oh ya, i went to Sentosa with the crew at Bugis Cafe.
quite boring la.
no radio, not much food, not many ppl.
last of the last of the last minute planning.
hahahahaha.
its quite fun swimming with epul, nana and taufiq although it rains.
me and epul made sandcastle halfway.
how 'romantic' is that uh..
hahahaha.

that's enough for today's update.
will update soon, i promise.

2007-03-23T01:10:00.000+08:00

1st part

im really thankful tat u came back into my life.
its was really a wonderful 2 days i had with u.
i tot things gonna be orite.
u said on ur bdae, u wanna buy 'something'.
so juz now, i searched for it.
i roamed the whole bugis street.
but to no avail.
i text u, telling u im trying to find ur stuff.
but instead of being appreciative, u asked me,

"y u wanna find it? wats the point? my bdae's over. its best tat u save ur money."

I, being a patient, did not reply to her.
i think its the best way to react to this situation.
i know u very well.
unpredictable.
ur moods affect everyone.
feeling disappointed, yes.
i was hoping u would say,

"thank u khairul. i appreciate it. but its ok. i'll find it myself. i don wanna bother u."

but, i was wrong.
how stupid i am.

2nd part

u've been texting me these 'missing u' forward msges.
i really2 hope u mean it.
coz i really2 feel tat way.
its been so long since i saw, meet, going out with u.
i think the last time was during chalet.
hmm.
i like u.
i really do.
but someone taught me something.

'doesnt mean u like tat person, she have to like u the way u like her.'

so im putting my feelings towards u in a quiet little space in my heart.
hopefully this space will grow.
i hate comparison but i cant help it.
at least u appreciate the things i did unlike the 1st girl.

well, im done for today. nites.

2007-03-13T03:31:00.000+08:00

Haiz!
not a gd way to start a post.

oh well.
i feel lonely rite now.
i miss kina's phone call.
i miss nas phone call & his lameness.
i miss lepak-ing.
i miss the people who make my hp rings.
i miss everything.

i guess me working makes me have less time.
oh well, dont worry about me.
i'll be fine.
the 'missing2' thing will be gone.
Haiz!

2007-03-07T01:27:00.000+08:00

Life is afterall UNFAIR.
Life is like a road with traffic lights and bends.
Sometimes you got to stop, and sometimes you got to change direction,
just to reach your GOAL.
You cant always have your own way.
Instead, try to adapt to the situation.
Adapting to situation is the best way to live life to the fullest.

Problems are part of LIFE.
If problems keep adding up,
and you really want to give up everything,
THINK.
Because when you do that, it means you gave up on LIFE.
And that is SINFUL.
Instead, try to solving it 1 at a time.
Every problem has its solution.

Trust.
1 strong word.
Foundation of everything.
In friendship and relationship.
Once u breach the trust, its hard to regain it back.
You may try to regain it back but it needs patience.

Everything about yourself has a balance.
Example: ME.
I dont have great looks and perfect features.
But I try to balance it with my characteristic and personality.
But somehow, somewhere, sometimes,
its not even enough for some people.
Nobody is perfect.
I know.
Its easy to see a bad side than the good side of a person.
I wonder why sometimes.
People do judge a book by its cover.

Sometimes you are so preoccupied with problems,
that you missed out the best things/people.
Try looking on the brightside.
Every cloud has a silver lining.
It means that you should never feel hopeless,
because difficult times always lead to better days.
The sun shining at the edges of every cloud reminds us
that every difficult situation has a bright side.

WELL, THAT'S LIFE & IT SUCKS!
(This is what happen when you have plenty of time at HOME!)

2007-03-04T00:16:00.000+08:00

my life has been a routine for me lately...
and im bored with it...
nothing new...
doing the same thing everyday...
i feel lonely too...
going out is not a good solution...
it requires $$ which i dont really have...
and if going out is the last resort, who?
who is going out with me...?
Nas? He got attachment...
maybe i should stay at home...
clean and pack my stuffs...
gonna move out soon but not so soon...
well, tats it.

2007-02-27T13:40:00.000+08:00

hey there!
i had a great time during the watevas chalet...
the whole 3D2N, i nvr shut my eyes to sleep...
i let the rest sleep...
the sleepless nites have affected me abit...
like talking nonsense, lose appetite, hot tempered...
but i nvr feel sleepy sia...
y ah?

the 1st nite was orite...
play police and murderer...
kina funny la play tat game...
then we tell ghost story(lame), funny story...
then nas fren came...
then all of them except for me, sharir, jijah, and muhsin go for a stroll somewhere...
abt 1/2 hour later, they came back...
all hungry...
we fry egg bread + hotdog...
eat already, all sleep except for me and sharir...
sharir went to sleep later on...
i tried to but as u knw, the watevas kids are so 'irritating'...
heeee...
i couldnt sleep at all...
end up, help to cook...

pre-bbq was a hell...
i kinda scold momo and sharir for juz leaving me and nas...
i donno y when i become mad, everybody seems to listen to me...
heeee...
well, the bbq goes smoothly as wat i expected it...
no cake = SUCKS!
i got 2 prezzie from tat bbq...
a t-shirt and a snowcap...
love them...
both the prezzie and the ppl who gave me...
i shant name them...

nas gave me a 'special' present...
he gave me a great laugh...
i put salt on his lips and painted his face like Rambo when he's asleep...
when he woke up the next day, he went searching for the boys...
we went for breakfast...
so without looking at the mirror as usual, he juz went out...
he already walked far when he realise he wanna pee...
so the toilet he went and juz realised tat his face was painted...
when we came back, all we heard from below was,
"Bastard sak dorang!"
hahas...
u know y we sabo him...
HE SNORES VERY LOUD!!!!!!!!!
hahas...
cannot tahan until i cannot sleep...
hehehehe...

overall, the chalet + bbq was wonderful...
atleast we got to spend alot quality time together...
like playing games, tell stories, cooking, watch tv even sleeping...
&& sitting on the back of the lorry and pickup...
hahahahahas...

my story ends here...
i'll show u NAS pic some other time...
bubye!

2007-02-20T00:06:00.000+08:00

i've enjoyed myself this weekend...
really enjoy with my dad's family...
although i hurt left foot during the crab catching, i enjoyed it 110%...

17 feb
went to dad's hse for a bdae party...
for my for 3 siblings + insyirah + me...
cool huh...
so many feb babies...
talking abt feb babies, today is kina's bdae!!!
happy 18th birthday sayang!
she going to JB later...
cannot celebrate with her...
nvm, atleast she can spend together with her family...
ok, back to the story...
there, i ate my favourite chocolate ball, chocolate cake and the usual party foods...
but tat day, i really hate chocolate for the 1st time...
too much daa...
makes my head go spinning arnd...
then me, my 1st sis and my 2nd sis with her husband and insyirah left...
me and 1st sis go watch NORBIT!
i tot it was gonna be funny but it isnt...
disappointing seh...
argh!
nvm la...

18 feb

dad ask me to come along to catch crab with his family and my stepmum's brothers and sisters...
so reach my dad hse abt 8.20...
watch tv, go shop...
then left the hse abt 10+...
edlin came too...
tats gd to see...
then we reached abt 11+, 12 like tat...
1st, do nothing, sitting arnd, eat, eat, eat...
then go see my dad fish...
then go and catch crab...
so fun yet so scary...
the waves are so strong...
even my left slipper got stuck on the seabed...
so damn unlucky...
but the 1st crab i caught was the best...
actually got 2, but due to my excitement, 1 fell off...
sux la u khai!!
hehe...
then got cut on my foot...
tat sux somemore...
i gave up catching and went up...
dad asked abg to buy plaster...
the pain was nothing la but hard to walk...
i continue my day with eating...
arnd 8+, i went off...
abg nahar was kind enuff to send me to woodlands for insyirah's bdae party...
im quite tired and uncomfortable by the time the cake was cut...
nice cake btw... unlike the day b4...

19 feb
go to my boss hse for CNY open hse...
quite bored...
nothing to entertain us except for us...
the food sux...
but the place, WOW!!
rich ppl can afford...
bungalow sia...

ok, tats it!

2007-02-14T23:19:00.000+08:00

This is something for the lovebirds who are in love for Valentines...

Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above

I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be love suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

2007-02-13T00:40:00.000+08:00

i had a great time talking to my old schmates from pri sch...
shaifuddin and esp. idayu coz i've nvr like notice her in pri sch...
shaifuddin has been one of my bestfrens in pri sch...
we did everything together even wrestle each other in sch...
cool uh...
oh ya, we're having a mini reunion...
donno when but surely a must have...
alot to catch up...

tmrw, eh wrong...
today i got my 2nd last paper...
YES!!!
cant wait to get over it...

orite orite...
here are the list of events confirm happening:

-dad inviting me to his hse for adik2 bdae (17 feb)
-watevas chalet of coz (23th-25th)
-BVPS reunion 2001 graduates (?? march)

tats all i guess... hehe...
&& tats all for this post...
Chao!

2007-02-11T00:48:00.000+08:00

well, there's this report abt goalkeepers on friday in the newpaper... and it doesnt make me feel tat good... yeahh, most goalkeepers are not tat skillful and tats y they become a goalkeeper... on saturday, a fren of mine says tat its true... tell it to my face saying tat im not tat good playing as an outfield player and tats y im playing a goalkeeper... im used to his insults coz i take it as a joke... but do u have to say it to my face? argh, nvm... he's tat type of person who just speak his mind and always win... y argue when u know he's gonna win... =/

well, juz now got kenduri... as usual, the teens ROC after the kenduri... listen to NS life... talk to fadly, my cousin who is my former pri sch classmate too... then some of them went home... luckily there's akid and insyirah to keep their granddads, grandmums, uncles and aunties entertain... they keep playing soccer, kick here, kick there... unusual facial expressions... so the funny...

ok... left two(2) more papers and im done for year 1 of my oh-so-boring poly life... then two(2) months vacation... oh, congrats to the people who had done well for their O lvl... and those who did not do well, its ok... u've done your ultimate best... life doesnt stop there... =]

gtg... (watching soccer daa)

2007-02-05T23:58:00.000+08:00

im tired..
im stress..
i did everything i could in my 'powers'...
but it turns out wrong...
and infact u put the blame on me after i tried helping u...
argh..
the least u could say is 'thank u... i know u did ur best.'
but...
nvm...
i don take it to heart..
no hard feelings, bro...
don worry...
khai forgives but doesnt forget...

im gonna start studying tmrw...
but guess wat im doing now...
PLAYING GAME!!!
tmrw k i start studying...
110%.

'why do love come and go ah...? y uh?'
this is not a riddle,FYI...

2007-02-04T22:53:00.000+08:00

it juz took too long...
i've waited so long to be with u...
i need to wait for God-knows how long for u to forget abt him...
and i need to wait for u to love me...
how long is tat...?
im juz a guy who have limits...
doesnt mean i have patience, i don have any limits...

this week, is my study week.
next week, is my exam week.
then after tat week, 8 WEEKS VACATION!

ok, im siow oready...
bye.

2007-01-29T01:10:00.000+08:00

y do i feel tat everything i do is not gd enuff?
y do i feel reponsibilities is always on me?
y do i feel tat frens are there when u dont really need them,
and they're not there when u need them...?
y do i feel frens look up to me?
y do i feel when frens talk, i listen and when i talk, they dont...?

2007-01-22T21:46:00.000+08:00

1 more presentation and im done with all the projects and presentations...
and im off...
to nowhere la...
off to study...
exams coming soon...
gotta do better than last semester...
after exams, mayb there's a chalet...
for watevas and frens...
sounds like barney and frens...
hehe...
the chalet is for kina, jija and my bdae...
i say mayb bcos there's a lot of stuffs the watevas have to do...
like exams, presentation and projects, attachments...
so we'll see to it...
change the date mayb...

got to go now...
wanna finish some unfinished business...

2007-01-17T01:07:00.000+08:00

im not as patience as i tot i'd be...
i donno y...
mayb coz of patience, ppl start stepping on my head...
and mayb coz i don like keeping it inside anymore...
coz of this impatienceness, i love the song 'patience'...
i need this song to remind myself to be patient...
patience is virtue...

now, im starting to have semangat to go to classes...
and i love goin to work...
esp. if sis goes there...
make the time go faster...
and the crews there is so damn cute and funny...
really cute, esp. taufiq...
oh, he celebrated his 21st bdae just now...
but he gotta work from morning to nite..
poor thing...

orite, im getting ready to fly to disneyland...
c ya!

2007-01-15T00:13:00.000+08:00

i hate this feeling...
seriously.
y do this feeling have to exist...?
argh...
shit.

well, on the bright side...
i manage to work 3 days last week...
wohoo!!!
4hrs a day...
12hrs in total...
$54 oready..
cool...
last month pay was $36..
i got it by tmrw...
cool...
i wanna buy new wallet la...
da hanc...
hehe...
looking forward to work on tues, wed and thurs...
atleast i do something...
don wanna stay at home, play games...
i enjoy working...
but since fahmy left, the place is a lil bit quiet...
farid got no one to clique...

orite, im kinda sleepy...
so gdbye...

2007-01-05T01:45:00.000+08:00

new year.
new skin.
new url.
but still the same khai.
hehe...

the reason y i chose these url is tat...
life is live telecast.
its not a repeat telecast.
living on earth is like acting on stage.
tats my reason.
ok ok.
im talking crap.

i love my new skin.
cool huh...?
hehe...
well, i wanna sleep...
long day tmrw!

2007-01-01T02:35:00.000+08:00

06 has past.
so fast.
really2 fast.
its been a great year.
yeahh.
no doubt.
07 came and here to stay for 365 days.
i think its gonna be a slow year.
nothing to look forward to.
my birthday i guess.
then wat...?
Nothing!

orite, i'll admit tat breaking up wif u was a lil bit sad.
but i did it on purpose.
i need a really gd timing to do tat.
when u send me that msg, i knw its a rite timing.
juz rite.
u knw y?
after all these time i've been waiting...
im sick of waiting.
waiting makes the feeling fade.
and waiting for u to forget him, bla bla bla...
i cant...
sorry, i juz cant...
waited so long...

HAPPY 'O7 EVERYONE!

2006-12-30T01:42:00.000+08:00

life is down rite now...
i hate it...
hate it so bad tat i don wanna go home...
mum didnt let me go outing wif my dad's family tmrw...
i mean today, saturday...
sux ah!!
everyone there wants me to go...
argh!
argh!
argh, how many argh i put oso not gonna change anything...

i wanna end this 2006 with positives...
i wanna enjoy 2006...
its been a great freaking year...
yeahh...
cool huh...
new sch, new frens, won nssl, work, new colleagues...

orite, i'll talk abt my work...
it was orite...
more of laughing and drinking than working...
these suhaimy, farid and fahmy making stupid jokes and comments...
they're so cool...
cooler than watevas(neh, i don think so!)
i havent start making hot drinks yet...
not confident yet...
but i do the soft drinks...
so simple...

oh, i saw aqilah there...
not in the cafe but juz outside...
she look shock to see me there...
say hi and walk off...

orite, i'll stop here...
1.50 oready..
shud be sleeping rite now...

and oh, i forgot.
msg to kina..
u knw the guy u like at the street soccer, Amil...
he'a a classmate of Azmi...
and he knws alot...

2006-12-17T22:30:00.000+08:00

im tired...
really2 am...

tmrw im not in jurong...
i think for 1 week...
its good for me..
i wanna go away...
oh ya, i forget...
im working...
so i'll be busy to think abt negative things...
i juz read something and all i think abt is negative...
i donno y but i think im tired...
tats y i think negative...
haiyo...

cant wait to go my dad's hse...
meetin boboy at cck library at 7pm...
thats when he finish his CSO...

well, see u in a week time...
C YA!